I really needed today. I probably haven’t admitted to myself, let alone anyone e… : I really needed today. I probably haven’t admitted to myself, let alone anyone else but I feel quite depressed at the moment. I’m able to cover it up somewhat but it’s there. It’s there bubbling under the surface in the background. I’m breaking down every few hours, I feel lost, I’m wondering where my life is headed, I’m spending more and more time at home so I don’t have to face anyone. I’m anxious as fuck. I’m annoyed I’ve not achieved more this year, I keep comparing myself to my peers, I’m SO PISSED OFF AT HAVING A CHRONIC ILLNESS. I’m so jealous of everyone “normal” Urgh, it’s a lot. Buttttttt, there’s great days in between the dark days and for that I’m super grateful. Today was one of them. I spent time with my best friend, and I felt pretty in my new outfit so that’s a bonus!