My self confidence surrounding my work is so low at the moment. Since lockdown s… : My self confidence surrounding my work is so low at the moment. Since lockdown started, I’m finding that Saturdays are quite a good day for me to create content and I got up early this morning to film a piece of sponsored content. All I needed to do was film a little makeup look but I just couldn’t do it. Every time I tried to do it, I just couldn’t. Everything was going wrong?! I’ve also tried to film this same job for about 2 weeks!! I ended up having a total melt down, a cry and I had to crawl back into bed with my girlfriend, totally defeated. All before 9am! How do MUA’s do it? How is everyone else able to film such good content? I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me? Like I’m past it, I’m no good, I’m shit at my job. Urgh. I seem to battle with self comparison so much and some weeks it defeats me. I’ll try again on Monday, I just wish I was as confident as I was when I first started this career! I over think everything now and get annoyed at everything I can’t do instead of focusing on what I can do and what I have achieved. Gahhhhhh. Off to find some wine.